Fresh Hope – Day 190

For years, I tried to make myself like other people that I perceived to be popular.

I went through about five personality changes in order to be liked, ranging from becoming one of God’s clowns to becoming Mr. Serious.

I was so like one particular person when I spoke that it was difficult to tell one from the other.

All of this was to no avail,  and so I decided to drop the act and become who I was supposed to be: ME.

It takes a certain amount of vulnerability to do so but it’s worth every bit of the pain.

Why do we work so hard to not be vulnerable?

Why are we so afraid to be who we really are?

Maybe it’s because of the past we’ve come from or the pain we’ve experienced that teaches us to be masters of disguise.

Is it possible that we think that ‘if you knew who I really was, you wouldn’t love me?’ So out of the fear of rejection, I give you somebody that I think you would like and hide who I really am.

Look at the energy we spend hiding our vulnerability to protect ourselves from people that often don’t even matter.

After becoming me, I realised that people actually loved me and accepted me for who I was far more than when I was doing my best impressions of others.

Give yourself permission today to have a personality upgrade. I am who I am by the Grace of God.

Pastor Mark

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